See me for myself

First of all Lord I'm sorry that I have believed I can heal another human. Look deep within my soul and cleanse me from undue responsibility. I'm sorry that I've believed I could do a better job than You at ministering to a loved ones brokenness. I'm so sorry for seeking love from people first …

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Chronic ANYTHING causes cyclic chaos

I at least have a brain cell and won't succumb to the average, normal, status quo way of indulging an escape from relational, emotional and physical pain.  If I have come this far in life and endured the creaking of arthritic joints, pain in my vagina, over-firing of nerves in my legs, debilitation of muscle …

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For Far too Long

For far too long, I have carried physical pain in my body, perhaps my whole life. I attributed much of my pain to the emotional sufferings I endured and witnessed as a child. I didn't make that connection until I was hospitalized for an eating disorder many years ago. Perhaps developing a love/hate relationship with …

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This is the reason why……

Dear Friend, I appreciate your inquiry about my life's decisions, but your observations and conclusions couldn't possibly know the reason why I do anything.  I had a teacher run into me 15 years after high school and state that he thought I "would have wound up dead  in a gutter somewhere." That hurt my feelings a …

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Dating a dissociative

Daddy always knows what I need.  I believed I needed to have a partner move with me to the South for close proximity to observe a lifestyle that could have easily been hidden through distance.  I had trust issues and knew the emotional distance I was able to concoct in order to survive deep interaction …

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Three criteria for a mate

Three criteria come up for me when I consider who NOT to date. I'm getting better at sniffing out who isn't compatible with me based on the suffering I have already lived through. Let's face it none of us are getting any younger so with each day that passes by, it is important to store …

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