Svengali wears a cowboy hat

Something happens on the inside when you know you're walking on shaky ground but don't necessarily have to be. It's that lump in your throat and the heat that surfaces on your chest when you lie to yourself and proceed in a relationship that is screaming "caution". Nothing about the guy is transparent or quantifiable …

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my mom in male form

Something about that dynamic between two people, where one executes all of the power through maltreatment of the other, didn't fit for me anymore as an adult. It just feels mean and creates fear in me because I can't be myself around him.  Here I am again, disturbed as soon as he left because I …

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Denying the abundance available

I don’t know if that’s possible in America where popping pills is the new money making anecdote and the rise of psychiatric hospital exams indicate that many people feel vulnerable to someone else in authority, to tell them who they really are.  Nobody stable was able to shower them with love and acceptance from a …

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Garbage

I always say, “God don’t make trash” which means he doesn’t give the birth defects, the autism, the gay gene, the vehement temper, the addiction, anxiety disorders, depression or disease we suffer with, because we are knit together perfectly in our mothers womb. And every single one of us shot out of a woman's womb.  …

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Exiling the sum of all parts

"Think of times in your life when you felt humiliated, grief stricken, terrified, or abandoned. What have you tried to do with the memories, sensations, and emotions from those events? If you are like most people, you have tried to forget about them-to bury them deep in your mind. Think also about what the people …

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Unwanted children attract Spiritual strife

Have you gone to the Doctor and filled out a medical form before?  Most of us have, and the questions asked usually help the Doctor detect if you have predisposition to certain ailments based on generational lines from either one of your parents.  Psychologists usually start with questions pertaining to your background and surroundings that …

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