my mom in male form

Something about that dynamic between two people, where one executes all of the power through maltreatment of the other, didn't fit for me anymore as an adult. It just feels mean and creates fear in me because I can't be myself around him.  Here I am again, disturbed as soon as he left because I …

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Tribal tenderness twisted terminology

God can’t produce a bad situation in hopes of twisting our arm to look toward Him for relief. I have sincere compassion for the gay community but don’t condone it, however I never use Jesus as an argument either. I have worked with numerous teens who struggle with gender identity issues and have witnessed them …

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Denying the abundance available

I don’t know if that’s possible in America where popping pills is the new money making anecdote and the rise of psychiatric hospital exams indicate that many people feel vulnerable to someone else in authority, to tell them who they really are.  Nobody stable was able to shower them with love and acceptance from a …

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Garbage

I always say, “God don’t make trash” which means he doesn’t give the birth defects, the autism, the gay gene, the vehement temper, the addiction, anxiety disorders, depression or disease we suffer with, because we are knit together perfectly in our mothers womb. And every single one of us shot out of a woman's womb.  …

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Shaming the scapegoat into secrecy

Too often, like in cases like mine, my abuser deeply wounded me within and I questioned why God put me in a family where betrayal was the norm. The act of trauma was a layer upon the already existing unwantedness in the womb, and my unbelief in authority figures and God felt like the same …

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The specific suggestions of satan

The enemy first attaches to unbelief either through the parent (womb assignment) or to the child through suggestion after birth. Satan suggests through a huge gamut of opportunities where a care taker breeches trust or rejects the child, resulting in unbelief in God.  Because we are all spiritual beings, this transference of emotion can occur …

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Spare us, don’t have sex

The very foster care system our country implements is meant to always reconcile the child with the parent who passed him off to strangers, stating that DNA makes that bond more powerful then love.  That however is based on foundational beliefs of the world that view procreation as a right, not a Holy responsibility.  It …

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Footwashing for Scarlet A

I was that chic who was deemed sinful because of my shady past and many women in the church hung onto their husbands when I walked into the room. However, as Daddy God would have it, I was the perfect candidate for a foot washing.  Seems like the timing of re-visiting past memories on Easter …

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Bullies are impotent giants

True Story.  Two men at the gym, both brought an urgency to my spirit because each carried his own demons that demanded attention, yet in different forms.  The first man I saw, the other man I heard. I forgot my ipod and couldn’t listen to music as usual so I was keenly aware of my …

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